Thurs, March 11, 2021
So I mentioned this idea of my life on pause during Bible Study last night. I’m not sure anyone really understood what I meant. As a matter of fact, I’m not even sure I knew what I meant! Its like over this year things have still happened – I’ve eaten, slept, laughed, cried, exercise, worked and done all the things – well, not all the things, but I’ve done these things primarily in/from my house. Now, let the record show that I love my house and I’m so grateful for it and the creature comforts I have, including a place to work. But my time with 3-dimensional people has primarily been with my husband – which, again, is great, but where is everyone else?! Seriously. Where are they? I think the reason I enjoy Tik Tok so much (besides it being hilarious) is because it shows other people doing things, even if sometimes they are just stupid things! It reminds me that other people (lots of them) still exist in the world and I can witness it in a way. As I’m writing this this feels really pathetic, but do you follow me? And in terms of life being on pause – to be fair this is true for lots of activities that we used to do or feel safe doing – concerts, worship, theater, movies, meals with friends, work and/or work gatherings, etc. These things were all dramatically put on pause a year ago! Now, if and when we take up these things again it is with a side of anxiety, fear and yes, of course, masks and distancing. We’ve lost so much over this past year and I’m not sure if/how we will get it back again; the confidence and casual nature by which we can socialize and gather in the world. Yes, my game (life) is most definitely on pause. And before I hit the play button again I’m thinking I may need to hit the reset button or maybe even reboot the system all together! But, we will get in the game again – maybe a little road weary (read: Zoom weary), but hopefully we will have grown in ways that will help us be better humans to one another going forward. We must not waste this opportunity to reflect on the pause so we can appreciate our “free play” time all the more.